Saturday, September 5, 2015

Queen

There is a game
we all are trained to play
We become
chess masters 
from the very beginning
We learn 
what we are supposed to do
to be seen and not heard
Do what I say and not what I do
The rules are laid out
by the slightest disapproving glance
or a blistering backhand
We are engrained
we are inscripted
we are accutely
cognitively
encoded
with directions
on how to
curb
smooth
edit 
censor
and gage 
the truth
before we even know it
and then, before we know it
we cannot handle it
It's not that we can't handle hearing it 
it's that we can't handle telling it 
And if you leave this 
human 
being
without telling your whole truth 
your raw truth 
your pure truth 
about who you really are 
then your time here 
will feel incomplete 
Your travels to the other side 
made even more rough and painful 
Is death not scary enough?
When I rest 
I want to rest in peace 
because I surely do not right now 
for those in my life 
who will not tell me their truth 
because they can't
they won't
they shouldn't 
they're afraid 
they don't understand 
or they do
are full of bullshit 
will 
not 
waste 
your 
time
because I refuse to waste mine
So 
do 
not 
waste 
my 
time
because you should not waste your own
Life is too priceless
to spend on mindless exercise 
such as strategy
I am not a pawn that begins battles for you 
or a knight who serves and protects
I am not a sly rook
Nor a stable bishop
Certainly not an idle king
I am a Queen 
who can move in any direction she wants
So if you approach me with the mindset of playing a game
be ready for what I toss back at you 
because my life doesn't follow the rules
my truth usually breaks them 
and I am tired of trying to figure out my opponents strategy 
this isn't a game to me
You may be having fun
but be careful 
Consider this your fair warning 

have 
nothing 
to 
lose
and that may make me dangerous 
because I am not playing, 
anymore.

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